Dreaming

It's been a busy week. But I still had time to think of her. Still had her in my mind, though I know I should have forgotten her last year. I still dream of her face, her smile, her eyes....it's not right. I know it's not. But hell no, I've said it before, and I'll say it again. I don't want to forget her. No. I refuse.

But why? I don't know why. I don't know why she keeps appearing in my mind. I don't know why I keep making happy illusions of her and me in my head. I don't know why I keep looking for her face in the crowd. I just do. Call it a disease, call it a distraction. I don't know or care. The fact is, we all have to indulge in something. This is my indulgence. And I'll suffer alone if I have to.

Hmm, it may seem like I'm so alone. Well, I am. Always have been. Even from the time anyone who have visited this blog has known me, I've been alone. Perhaps it's my fate to be that way. And sometimes I embrace it. Sometimes it's good to be alone. But not all the time. And I think I've dealt with it quite well.

I just wish I could meet her one more time. This girl. This unique girl, who caught my attention the first time I saw her. The girl who matters, and yet does not, or shouldn't. I want to see her again, just to know who she really is. That's all.

On a different note, I just saw some amazing artwork on youtube. Some of the artwork I had already seen a few years back. A really classy presentation, I must say. Kudos to the presenter, she really is talented.

I've been mulling over an idea on making a third blog, but I'm still divided equally over going with it, and not. Rest assured, it'll be Familiar;)